There Is No Blue

There Is No Blue

WINNER OF THE HILARY WESTON WRITERS' TRUST PRIZE FOR NONFICTION THE  GLOBE AND MAIL : BOOKS TO READ IN FALL 2023 THE  GLOBE AND MAIL  BEST 100 BOOKS OF 2023 CBC BOOKS BEST CANADIAN NONFICTION OF 2023 Martha Baillie’s richly layered response to her mother’s passing, her father's life, and her sister’s suicide is an exploration of how the body, the rooms we inhabit, and our languages offer the psyche a home, if only for a time.  Three essays, three deaths. The first is the death of the author’s mother, a protracted disappearance, leaving space for thoughtfulness and ritual: the washing of her body, the making of a death mask. The second considers the author’s father, his remoteness, his charm, a lacuna at the centre of the family even before his death, earlier than her mother’s. And then, the shocking death of the author’s sister, a visual artist and writer living with a diagnosis of schizophrenia, who writes three reasons to die on her bedroom wall and then takes her life. In this close observation of a family, few absolutes hold, as experiences of reality diverge. A memoir of cascading grief and survival from the author of  The Incident Report. "Martha Baillie’s novels are thrillingly, joyously singular, that rare combination of  sui generis  and just plain generous. That  There Is No Blue , her memoir, is all of those things too, is no surprise; still, she has gone somewhere extraordinary. This triptych of essays, which exquisitely unfolds the “disobedient tale” of the lives and deaths of her mother, her father, and her sister, is a meditation on the mystery and wonder of grief and art making and home and memory itself. It made me think of kintsugi, the Japanese art of repair, in which the mending is not hidden but featured and beautifully illuminated. Baillie’s variety of attention, carved out of language, is tenderness, is love." – Maud Casey, author of  City of Incurable Women "This is a stunning memoir, intense and meticulous in its observations of family life. Baillie subtly interrogates and conveys the devastating mistranslations that take place in childhood, the antagonism and porousness of siblings, and the tragedy of schizophrenia as it unfolds. I couldn’t put it down." – Dr. Lisa Appignanesi, author of  Mad, Bad and Sad  and  Everyday Madness ""Exquisite." – Souvankham Thammavongsa, author of  How to Pronounce Knife "I am grateful for this profound meditation on family and loss.” – Charlie Kaufman, filmmaker "This strange, unsettling memoir of outer life and inner life and their bizarre twining captures the author’s identity by way of her mother’s death, her sister’s failing battle with mental illness, and the mysterious figure of her father. It combines anguished guilt, deep tenderness, and bemused affection in highly evocative, often disturbing prose. Its brave honesty is amplified by a persistent lyricism; its undercurrent of fear is uplifted by a surprising, resilient hopefulness. It is both a plea for exoneration and an act of exoneration, an authentic meditation on the terrible difficulty of being human." – Andrew Solomon, author of  The Noonday Demon “In this exquisitely written memoir, Baillie delves into the fine despair coating family relationships, calling into question how clearly we see those we live most closely to. Through the art of the essay, she explores her mother’s passing, her father’s protective role, and the long-term consequences of living with a sister who has schizophrenia. Here are the age-old challenges of loving someone who doesn’t understand us, the doomed attempts to save someone from themselves, and the constant reckoning with the millions of ways family imprints itself on us. An elegy to the beautiful fight to keep a family together and an ode to the devastating loss when things fall apart, There Is No Blue rattles the bones of what it is to be in imperfect relationships with the people we are tied to by birth and blood.” – 2024 Hilary Weston Writers’ Trust Prize for Nonfiction jury (Annahid Dashtgard, Taylor Lambert, and Christina Sharpe) " There is No Blue  is a study in the tyranny of fragility. . . It's strangely mesmerizing, also disturbing. It's a book about memory--whose memory counts--but it's also a book about art." –Christina Patterson,  The Sunday Times "[Baillie] knows she’ll never find out why a shared childhood should have had such different outcomes; the only truth she arrives at will be variable and of her own making. Still, the 'disobedient tale' she tells is tough, tender and compelling." – Blake Morrison, The Guardian "Baillie’s memoir in essays, There Is No Blue , emerges from a desire to collapse [the] distance between sister and sister." – Rachel Gerry, Literary Review of Canada Praise for the Author: “Revealing, puzzling, dazzling, The Search for Heinrich Schlögel resists reduction, rewards rereading. It draws you forward as a narrative should, but ultimately unfolds in you like poetry.” – Jamie Zeppa, Literary Review of