E.Pie.Mo: Dying Pain With In My Temple Of Endless Love.

E.Pie.Mo: Dying Pain With In My Temple Of Endless Love.

Misery bear is a depressed and pathetic teddy bear (a bit borderline alcoholic with some anger issues). He has made people laugh and cry all over the world since he first appeared on the BBC Comedy website. Here's MISERY BEAR'S GUIDE TO LOVE & HEARTBREAK (guaranteed to make you feel better about yourself) told in story and picture form from his own tear- (and occassionally whisky-) soaked paw. Misery Bear's life in love is the sorry tale of a loser. Friendless, except for Nat Saunders and Chris Hayward, who are helping him type properly on his iPad, Misery Bear's collection of thoughts, stories, poems, photographs, cartoons, diary entries, top 10 lists, recipes, ruminations and illustrations from the plush paw of this loveable little critter, probably won't help anyone succeed in love, but will make a lovely gift. MISERY BEAR'S GUIDE TO LOVE & HEARTBREAK will be sad, funny, cute, caustic and constantly on the verge of a breakdown, much like its author. About The Misery Bear is the loneliest, saddest and drunkest bear in the world. He drinks too much, hates his job and can't get a girlfriend. He lives in London and has just two friends, Nat Saunders and Chris Hayward. E.Pie.Mo dying pain with in my temple of endless love By Marlin Goode Monique Jackson AuthorHouse Copyright © 2009 Marlin Goode & Monique Jackson All right reserved. ISBN: 978-1-4490-1858-0 Chapter One My real life 1-24 If I could change, I would have done so b-4 I could fall harder then I have so many times. They say with age comes greater wiz-dom, I will say with age I have learned lots since the first time of my Downward travel. But some days I feel that saying can't mean what it reads. Because at the age 26 I'm down again, thinking and thinking. But this time I'm not so quick to get up, I hit a little to hard and you can say I blacked out. I can only hear what's being said which isn't much, but you'll be alright you've been through it before. And I have ... Which makes it that much more hurt filled and now more then ever I have something to lose. It may not be much to the rest of the world but its my world and all I have on my quest for more and personal greatness. I've never felt good about how my life started, was and is ... Something inside of me knows this isn't what I was put here for, nor created. Sometime I'm mad at god more then I am myself because I feel when I had my chance he took my mind, which altered my life and every since then I've been lost, I never was the smartest, cutest or biggest. I looked his way to find my way and I'm still lost ... It seems, and everyone says they understand. But "no" you can't. I'm crying inside, daily. But you understand!!! The edge 2-24 I can't say know matter what. I'd stay with you. Because there's a limit, a limit to what my heart can take. So I can't say know matter what. But I'll tell you what, I'll always love you. As the one I fell in love with. And know matter what, even when you may not think so. that's who I'll always, and have seen. X-rae 3-24 If our hearts went different directions, and never meet back up. I'd still think about you on my journey to become who I'm meant to be. I'd think about the if 's. Then the y's, such as -y- did I not alter my path for her. Then some how my trans slowly and sleepily unleashes my minds eye, and I sadly see I did. It's on my mind 4-24 Who I was suppose to be. A smart man wit a bright future, who's done well for himself and made a small family, with lots to look forward to. Who I became, I don't know. The hood talk N, Get naked 5-24 Look I don't mean to sound like the rest. But in that same since I know who I am and they ant nothing like me. But this needs to be said. Bus it loose. What that mean, get naked. I ant had it in a minute, and I been missing u. So like a hood nigga would say I got ta get that. Come give me that cuz ... bus it loose. "What that mean" Get naked. You don't like to be talked to like that, well I don't like to go with out. So like I said twice. Get naked. Can u 6-24 I know u don't understand. But I'm at a point in my like were I don't need any one to. I looked for Any one ... And when I say anyone, I mean anyone, to just understand what I was going through for years ... So that I could get at lease what was left of my life back on track. But with all the searching, I only found more pain and reason to want another life, or mine to end. Within childhood, my life was surrounded by nothing but dopes, who could care less if I had a future. And it eat at me and eat. That I came this close, that fucken close. To making it out without "anyone's" help, and in the mist and out the fucken blue lose it. Not my chance cuz ... my mind. And that hunts me. I could have been more ... I could have became something ... 60 7-24 I know I've said it b-4. Then time & time again. But I want a new life. A life were I don't have to want. Want for things I may never have. Like a new life ... Or being able to trust.